• 20 hours of sleep in the last 8 days, and still having plenty of energy
• Nightmares when you do manage to pass out
• Sleeping pills don’t really make you sleep, they just lock you into passed out nightmares you can’t wake from, so you don’t take them
• Feeling the overwhelming urge to get pierced. Anywhere. Now.
• Rum makes you even more hyper
• When WordPress 2.5 is released at 6 am central time, you’ve upgraded 2 sites by 5 am pacific time
• Having trouble following the precept to not send email or make phone calls when you’re out of kilter, so you write and delete the same note half a dozen times, then send it anyway and regret it 5 minutes later
• You avoid answering the email or return calls from caring friends because you’re too tired to pretend that everything is okay, yet desperately want them to tell you you still matter
• The littlest things hurt your feelings and leave you in tears that even you don’t understand

But the clearest sign:

• Feeling so unworthy that you don’t want to waste your doctor’s time with your petty symptoms.

I’m calling tomorrow. If I can just sleep again everything else will settle down.