Death comes for the young and old alike

I’m trying to talk myself down from a panic attack this morning. So far Ativan isn’t helping. I started the day reading all the articles on the swine flu outbreak in Mexico and the few cases in the United States, and got more upset with each one I read. I’m not afraid of contracting it [...]

Don’t forget the herbicide

I hardly know what to say. Trim the topiary “until all all that’s left for me to see is tu-lips on the mound?” If that’s not subtle enough, the commercial also has a model stroking her pussy cat after taking a weed whacker to her bush. Got it. Thank you very much. When, when, WHEN [...]

Playing doctor

I had to go to the lab to have blood drawn this morning.   My psychiatrist wanted a chem panel on me since I haven’t had levels checked on my meds in a couple of years, and dosage on one has tripled since then.  The problem is, what am I going to do if my cholesterol [...]

Mothers’ Weekend

It’s been nearly 30 years since I slept in a boys’ dorm.  But I’ve got my pillow, my sleeping bag, my laptop, and a vacant room on the 3rd floor of The Towers on the University of Idaho campus.  By the time Tony and I knew about Mothers’ Weekend it was too late to find [...]

I want this cat

From Pet Finder: NATASHA: I was left at SCRAPS on 3/12/09 because I did bite a baby in my previous home. I am a very sweet girl if I am treated nice. I am playful and feisty and can be full of mischief at times. I am so beautiful with my big gold eyes and [...]

Saving throw failed

In my dark, mysterious past I was once a D&D freak. I had the maps, the miniatures, the monster manual, and even a hand-made costume for parties. So it was with regret that I read today that Dave Arneson, who with partner Gary Gygax created Dungeons and Dragons, died this past week. He was 61. [...]

The first step on a long journey

You’ve all been here with me for the trek between diagnosis and acceptance of BPD, and all the byways in between, but now I’m starting on a new pathway toward mental health. My dad’s recent illness has dug up some old issues, so on the recommendation of my psychiatrist, I’ve started seeing a therapist to [...]

Leaving on a jet plane

I’m rushing about trying to get ready for a 2 day whirlwind trip, first to Seattle to meet up with Meredith, and then connect to a red eye to Baltimore through New York JFK. (New territory, that.) Then there’s going to be the grand adventure of driving a strange car in a strange city … [...]

Clean up on Isle 4

In the most average of all pursuits, I’ve been yanked out of my comfort zone and tossed into confusion, to the point that I actually had a panic attack trying to shop last night. Why? They are rearranging my grocery store, and everything is in turmoil. Instead of walking in the door to a Starbucks [...]